Ah yes, a thought again!

A thought has been bothering me for quite sometime and today I choose to spill it out. For I don't understand the necessity of the concept of thoughts piling up and leading me astray, making me think too much. Thoughts in general showcase those experiences of man where words too fail to suffice in talking out. Language does come in as a tool, a handy one at that, but thoughts listen to the language of the heart and this can be only assumed to be contemplated and comprehended depending on how keen one's ear is towards 'listening' and 'learning'. One may explicitly be candid towards a stranger while at the same time have in him or her locked up all his or her feelings and share neither joy nor sorrow with the people he or she knows. Perhaps this is typical of the human nature, where stranger becomes a living-diary who responds to you and you need not be afraid of disclosing your real identity to this stranger nor know the identity of him or her. Strange is the whole cycle one may think but in this cycle, there lies truth and magic.

A dear friend of mine, a professor to be precise, mentioned slackly about man and his attempt to stand on par with God, he asked me, "Did man not overturn God?" My response to this was that the question cannot be universalized and that this must be asked by the individuals to themselves. I do not know how far my reply stands valid but in the first place, to believe in an Almighty is a matter of opinion, a choice each individual takes; and I personally do not see any matter or evidence as to whether there exists a God in real. Again, some of you might mistake me to be an arrogant-ignorant little brat, but read closely for I say I do not believe in his existence and yet do not detest those who believe and have faith in Him. I do not know if I can call myself an 'Atheist' for I do, in a way, relate to the concept of 'God'. It is in the words like 'love', 'trust' and 'respect' that I see something far superior to me. Our very existence lies in the minute molecules of these words; mere words as they appear yet powerful enough they rise to prove their authority.

It is not easy for one to have in him or her the elements of love, trust and respect - each is acquired by great labour and personal experiences too add a great deal into learning more about these aspects. All said and done, I come back to my initial point of the 'bothering thought', the concept of God was a mere illustration to show how thoughts digress. Yet, this writing is a just representation of what I am 'thinking'. "To think is to live", they say but look what the constant thinking has brought us down to! It is only anarchy we get to see everywhere, with less learned people, charlatans and people who continuously cavil on the works of the great minds - they are likely to emerge at every corner. Knowledge and its extension has not spared mankind, it has set in him the long lasting ailment of melancholia. An inexorable regret for the lost past and pining for the hope-less future are the only two things man is left with. As perplexed one may seem, his or her thoughts do take the same line, as they build up the man's character, to an extent physically too, and create further confusions to the already existing tension.

As a reader, you might be frustrated by now because I still haven't mentioned about what is it that is bothering me in exact. Well, the prolonging or taking you through the spool of other thoughts was not any action of digression but was a deliberate act in showcasing to you how a mind works, a mind that is constantly learning as if this thirst would never quench. Many thoughts come to mind and some leave as momentary guests while few get retained in our minds and begin to haunt us in every way possible. In order to make myself almost clear, I shall quote Alexander Pope with his prosaic epigrams;

"A little learning is a dang'rous thing,

Drink deep, or taste not the Pierian spring:

There shallow draughts intoxicate the brain,

And drinking largely sobers us again."

Pope has clearly understood the sinister element that is hidden in the whole concept of gathering more 'knowledge'. I believe in the perception of a model which contributes to the above mentioned cycle, which compiles truth and magic as its intricate foundations; and the model is as follows:

- To think one must learn.

- To learn one must speak.

- To speak one must listen.